Depression: Written the 21st of December

Starting to get depressed,
feeling the emptiness in my chest,
I can't breathe, stomach burning,
just want to leave,
stomach turning...
old pictures show the lost beauty,
old friends see that it's gone,
am I a bad mom for wanting to be pretty again,
it feels wrong,
he is my everything,
I have no regret,
I just feel inadequate,
I'm but a silhouette....